Calvin Yu a.k.a "Big Daddy C"'s Journal

Calvin Yu a.k.a "Big Daddy C"'s Journal

Calvin Yu a.k.a "Big Daddy C"

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[11 Apr 2005|07:28pm]

I haven't updated on Livejournal in a long time. I feel bad, but I have converted to xanga now. But here's an update.

Schools been school, trying to get out of college asap. Friends are great, Chicago is warm, and still interning at MTV and loving it like hell.

So Comcast finally found out that we have been stealing cable. Actually half of the apt. complex has been getting free cable for the past 3 years. Having no cable is hell for me. I get sad, depressed, bored, lazy, paranoid, weird things just happen. So I had no choice but to cope with it. I did some "homework," yeah that was pretty interesting, updated a website I haven't done in awhile, talked to my mom on the phone for like almost 2 hours, watched Along Came Polly and Boiler Room like 20 times, and had nice chats with roommates. It was a whole new world. Even better, I went back to basics and borrowed Keiths Rollerblades. He just bought a bike so we rolled around Lincoln Park on Saturday night and Sunday. The weather was perfect and we went all over the place. I miss rollerblading, and its better here cause its flat land. I used to be scared of hills, actually I still am.

So the whole issue about summer is becoming a concern. I dont know whether MTV will hire me after the internship, but luckily I know I have a position at Meeting Tomorrow all summer. I really hope MTV hires me, if they don't, I think Im going to crawl into a hole and cry because I love that internship right now, and I seriously bust my ass off to the point where I get excited when they tell me to clean the storage room. Luckily, a lot of stuff they tell me to do now is actually of value to the company, so hopefully they will see that. But I know, almost 85% sure I'm going to be in Chicago. It's going to be interesting. Im really going to have to keep myself busy because life is boring without friends, and I don't have many here. Imean I have Alfredo, Keith, and a few girls and DSP people and that's about it. I am too personable, is that the right word, and I don't really become buddy buddy with people unless we click. But I know I'll be busy with a lot of new projects and stuff, hopefully. But I heard summer in Chicago is nice, and I'm excited to do stuff like Taste of Chicago, and I will definetly try to take a few trips home to visit my friends.

I was so close to going to Germany this summer until my dad turned me down. Booo, I was so ready. I guess I can only go out of the country once a year. My dad doesnt want me to have too much fun, and I guess hes right cause I wasnt going for any purpose but to "hang out."

In other news, if you are in a dance troupe in the Chicagoland Area, please sign up for "Hype!" 2005. Im in charge of the dance competition and it's really interesting because I dont have any hip hop, dance skills whatsoever. In fact, my knowledge of dance coordination is incredibly lacking, but I guess being a Marketing major helps somewhat cause you know how to promote something you know absolutely nothing about. I remember my mentor last year told me that. To be great at Marketing, you have to be able to market something you know nothing about and make it seem as if you've been the expert of it all along. So its fun, I get to pretend to be in the hip hop dance genre and its always fun designing graphics that steer towards culture.

Well, I'm finally going to post some of my Japan pictures. For the rest of them, heres my Yahoo Photos link
Click on Japan for the photos.

( Japan )

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[11 Apr 2005|07:23pm]

I haven't updated on Livejournal in a long time. I feel bad, but I have converted to xanga now. But here's an update.

Schools been school, trying to get out of college asap. Friends are great, Chicago is warm, and still interning at MTV and loving it like hell.

So Comcast finally found out that we have been stealing cable. Actually half of the apt. complex has been getting free cable for the past 3 years. Having no cable is hell for me. I get sad, depressed, bored, lazy, paranoid, weird things just happen. So I had no choice but to cope with it. I did some "homework," yeah that was pretty interesting, updated a website I haven't done in awhile, talked to my mom on the phone for like almost 2 hours, watched Along Came Polly and Boiler Room like 20 times, and had nice chats with roommates. It was a whole new world. Even better, I went back to basics and borrowed Keiths Rollerblades. He just bought a bike so we rolled around Lincoln Park on Saturday night and Sunday. The weather was perfect and we went all over the place. I miss rollerblading, and its better here cause its flat land. I used to be scared of hills, actually I still am.

So the whole issue about summer is becoming a concern. I dont know whether MTV will hire me after the internship, but luckily I know I have a position at Meeting Tomorrow all summer. I really hope MTV hires me, if they don't, I think Im going to crawl into a hole and cry because I love that internship right now, and I seriously bust my ass off to the point where I get excited when they tell me to clean the storage room. Luckily, a lot of stuff they tell me to do now is actually of value to the company, so hopefully they will see that. But I know, almost 85% sure I'm going to be in Chicago. It's going to be interesting. Im really going to have to keep myself busy because life is boring without friends, and I don't have many here. Imean I have Alfredo, Keith, and a few girls and DSP people and that's about it. I am too personable, is that the right word, and I don't really become buddy buddy with people unless we click. But I know I'll be busy with a lot of new projects and stuff, hopefully. But I heard summer in Chicago is nice, and I'm excited to do stuff like Taste of Chicago, and I will definetly try to take a few trips home to visit my friends.

I was so close to going to Germany this summer until my dad turned me down. Booo, I was so ready. I guess I can only go out of the country once a year. My dad doesnt want me to have too much fun, and I guess hes right cause I wasnt going for any purpose but to "hang out."

In other news, if you are in a dance troupe in the Chicagoland Area, please sign up for "Hype!" 2005. Im in charge of the dance competition and it's really interesting because I dont have any hip hop, dance skills whatsoever. In fact, my knowledge of dance coordination is incredibly lacking, but I guess being a Marketing major helps somewhat cause you know how to promote something you know absolutely nothing about. I remember my mentor last year told me that. To be great at Marketing, you have to be able to market something you know nothing about and make it seem as if you've been the expert of it all along. So its fun, I get to pretend to be in the hip hop dance genre and its always fun designing graphics that steer towards culture.

Well, I'm finally going to post some of my Japan pictures. For the rest of them, heres my Yahoo Photos link
Click on Japan for the photos.
( Japan )

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[17 Feb 2005|04:17pm]

After 2 long years of waiting, ignoring, rejection, waiting, etc etc. I have finally got on their radar! I got an internship at MTV Networks!!!!!

I am so excited. It lasted about 2 and a half weeks of waiting when they first called me. I didnt want to tell too many people cause I have this weird thing with karma where if I hype it up too much, I feel like I won't get it, so I just told a few people at work. I didnt want to mention it until I was close to possibly getting it. I applied 2 years ago and have been eagerly waiting and checking up on my status until I just gave up. I initially interviewed for MTV, and then they transferred me to Comedy Central. So as soon as I get final approval, I will be either working at MTV or Comedy Central. I am so unbelievable excited because it always seemed unattainable, but I guess if you wait and bug them long enough, something happens.

I wish I can work at MTV forever. It's my dream to work in entertainment, and I am such an avid fan of MTV its disgusting. Overall, I realized that I am so glad I am working in television because television is the one thing that has been hard for me to stay away from ever since I was a kid. And my closest friends know how much tv and how many of those teenybopper shows I like.

Anyways, I am deciding whether or not to double major or minor in American Studies: Pop Culture. I need something to keep me sane in this business major, and after learning more about the american studies program, I am more and more interested in learning more about pop culture. I signed up for the class Rock Music: Beatles History for my next quarter, so hopefully that works out.

okay, i just wanted to post because I am literally grinning ear to ear and I am so happy. The past few months have been pretty rough with stress, personal issues, and school. It's been awhile since I have been this happy. and Thanks to my co-workers at MT who have been goodlucking me!

Cya

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[14 Feb 2005|08:41am]

Here's a picture update including some from the black and white formal, random events lately, etc.

After getting a funny award.

Me and my trusty co-workers who keep me in check everyday.

2 of my closest friends in the fraternity, Keith and Alfredo

My cool unofficial date, Lindsey.

This was during winterbreak, just chillin at Lisettes apartment.

A good time at Justin Proctors place. Lauren, Tanya, and Julia.

Finally, a picture of my roommates. Cesar, Alfredo, and me. Now I gotta take some of the house.

Picture stolen from Nicole, quite a bitch of a snow during Chicago winters.

Walking home drunk one night with Julia and Nicole.

Okay, theres my photo update. Hope all is well, and I finally got my interview for MTV Networks/ Comedy Central on wednesday! fuuuuckk, wish me luck.

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[30 Dec 2004|05:47am]

To make a long story short, .....which I like never do on my xanga, I was happily typing up my xanga entry while on the pot and then I realized that my battery was almost out and in a matter of 5 seconds of trying to open word to cut n paste the entry and save it, it shut down. booooo...so my super long and amazing entry about cancun, party, oc, and other festivities that occured is now non-existent.

Buuut, I will make a list and just touch the surface of everything cause I really hate trying to do something again, mostly cause nothings ever as good as the first time

CANCUN
beautiful scenery, exactly how MTV marketed it to be. it was like one of those places where you really wanted to take a shower when you got back. even after youve taken like 3 showers a day, you still feel like none of those showers work until you got home. the food was amazing, became a dos equis addict, drank that shit every meal, became a chips and "pico de gallo" addict, fell in love with the taco cart that sold tacos for like a buck.

i was suprised i didnt get diarhea (sorry to be graphic), i instead got pretty sick one day cause weve been drinking for like 3 nights in a row. we realized we werent white, nor hot, so we decided to check out the mayan ruins as an excuse for culture exploration. verrrrry beautiful, verrry mindblowing. i loved it, the pyramids kicked major ass. went scuba diving, training was 2 hours, really fun, saw fish, was a wuss at first and was afraid to touch fish, but then touched it and enjoyed it.

cocobango nightclub was off the hizzy, got hooked up by some random dude on the bus, got vip pass, danced the night away, danced with some girl who my friends claim to say looked well over her 30s but I was too drunk to notice. saw exactly 6 asian girls, what a coincidence! but didnt think much of it. had a show/performance every 30 minutes, amazing music and nightclub vibe, enjoyed the latin salsa music, danced with local latin girl, didnt know what i was doing

got owned by many rip offs on the street market, felt bad for sellers, didnt like to bargain much, met brazillian stripper at a strip club and talked to her about rio and how much fun i would have if i went, said i had nice eyes (haha thats a first) and was very good at being seductive and eating my wallet, sadly i gave in

had a ginormous amount of fun with best friends, none of us got any action, box of condoms was still nicely packed, oh wait actually it was open, but only to impress our hotel maid..

overall, in all seriousness, i was glad i indulged culture, ate authentic mexica "mo-le", jetskiied, danced with locals, got owned by locals by buying a 10 dollar shell necklace and a puppet, and got closer with my buddies

OC

Yes, finally, i have recieved the OC SEASON 1 DISC SET. AND successfully converted my friends into watching it. in fact, they like it so much weve been watching it from 9 to 6 am in the morning. man that show rocks. the drama, the characters, summer ahhh!!! marissa!!! faaaccck so hot

i totally wanan be on that show, thats my dream. i want to move to LA and audition with no previous acting experience. and blow them away with my great idea of being either Dr. Kim's son, I was thinking johnny kim, cool name huh? or I can be Seth's new exchange student friend from China, called like Lee or Chang, who eventually steals the love of his life ,summer, away from him. Or I can make ryan jealous and he could totally punch me, like in every conflict he gets into. damn i need to stop watching this show....

My Party

So yeah i finally decided to have a party at my house. take advantage of the rents being out right? i wanted to switch up the theme though...have a wine and champagne event with some light jazz in the background. i even constructed a lounge room upstairs with house beats, and wmp visuals projected on the walls. i even put pillows on the ground and dimmed the lights. man i tried really hard. AND i made people dress up.

so the idea turned out to be pretty cool. people showed up, dressed up, enjoyed the wine, talked, and the jazz was playing. it was very cool and mature. however, i gave it about 2 hours until the usual bootyho music was going to be on.

2 and a half hours later. people got drunk, and next thing you knew, trick daddy or little john or whatever the hell, they all sound the same, started bumping on my surround sound, and in a matter of 5 seconds, exactly, people were grinding, making out, and yeah, my hopes of having a non-college like party went to the dumps. however, people enjoyed it, i had a good time, a hooka was in the lounge room, and it was a blast....except for cleaning up.

i only had the party for some street credit, cause im like single now, and i need to find new and vast ways to get women. however instead of making out with random girls and totally like pimping it as a host, i came out of the party with 3 broken locks, a broken vase, and the usual puke on the bathroom floor, front door, and my favorite, the couch. it was beatiful

alrite thats my winterbreak in a nutshell. ill update with pics soon. cya

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[16 Dec 2004|07:41pm]

Man what a crazy night. Andys bday after party at my place was great. It has now been confirmed that whenever I get drunk, I not only talk a lot and give motivational speeches, but now I take my clothes off. For some odd reason, I find it absolutely necessary for me to strip my clothes off and walk around topless. Yet, its stupid cause I really have nothing to show for.

But besides stripping my clothes off, I apparentaly also rap when I get drunk. Except its the most horrible rapping ever. I flowed for about 5 minutes rhyming words like "xanga" with "anga." Faaccck. I got hella owned last night.

But I love drinking with my buddies. Theres this wholesome love about it I can't explain. All of Andy's buddies came by last night and we had a great time playing poker, video games, talking and drinking. I love get togethers, mostly with the old school high school crowd. Damn, reminiscing on old times is so much fun. Rajeev came by and I havent seen him in so long. Him, Andy, Casey, Dan, and i used to be buddies with him back in elementary school. It was awesome.

Before the get together, we headed to Santana Row to eat at Straights. Man that place is starting to suck. It used to be my favorite restaurant, but the service blows now. I hate their "i think im better than you cause im a 26 year old male host" attitude. I kid i kid, sorry if that offended any....26 year old male hosts.. but yeah, i love singaporean, malaysian food but I guess we didnt order the right stuff last night. Oh well, it was fun nonetheless. Santana Row is such a pretty place man. Its so random. Its like you're driving around San Jose, everything looks all normal, and then BAM, you got this glitzy, high class strip of social materialism that just kind of stuffs its lifestyle down your throat.

So I'm leaving to Me-hi-co this saturday and I cant wait. I cant wait to go diving, jetskiing, atb-ing, sightseeing, etc. with my buds. It's going to be so much fun. I love travelling, and this is just another place to add. SO yeah, stalker - imean xanga logger is back up again, and nothing brings up the holiday cheers than the good ole logger. If theres another way to find a girlfriend through the power of our internet realm these days, its the xanga logger.

I was taking apart my studio last night cause I pretty much had no choice. I dont really live in my house anymore, and itd be better if I have an empty room so my mom can either make it a guest or work room. Anyways, it was pretty depressing. I had a lot of good memories in there. I remember the first days of my studio making process when I purchased my first 5 track recorder from Guitar Center. Shit, I was on that thing till 4 in the morning. I got my first Korg keyboard (used) and I was so happy. Then it slowly turned into a bigger studio when I moved into my bros old room and bought a mackie mixer, new condensor mic, and exchanged my keyboard for a yamaha. What a trip. I loved producing my talented friends. Working with different types of music from hip hop to pop was so much fun. Theres nothing better than being a producer. Sitting there, listening to the music, and just finding different ways to improve it, whether its through vocals or instrumentals. I even built a vocal booth by getting a platic clear door for the closet.

So yeah, because technology has been moving so fast these days, you can record a whole album on the computer. You can purchase input and amps that are the size of a book, and literally cut, mix, and edit tracks with so many different programs. Therefore, itll be easier to start over and set something small up in Chicago.

I'm selling a Mackie Mixer (15 track), a vestax dj mixer, and numark cd - dj player. So if anyones interested, please let me know.

Deep down inside, I want to be a producer. I've always wanted to be a producer because I love the power and responsibility that you withold. You're like the creator and director. Of course these days, its so difficult and stressful to make it to the top that you kinda adjust your head to realistic goals, but I think its something I'm going to start to take more seriously.

I went to an investment meeting yesterday with my Dad and his partner Brian. It was in SF, and with this company called "FutureTrax." My dad handed me their busines plan and I reviewed it while I was on the plane back home. The people starting this up are about 28 years old or so, young entrepenuers. It was very inspiriational shit, seeing young guys follow their passion and taking multiple risks in order to better their lives. I love that. We need more of those people in College. I wish people can realize their potential earlier in their lives. College would be a lot more fun. Yet people are constantly graduating without realizing what they are giong to do. Let alone, they start being proactive with their potential late in college, and then they walk out in the real world and get stuck.

I think its so important to get involved and to find a job while you're in college. It's hard shit out there these days. The competition is absolutely insane. A lot of people that are engineering, business, or communication majors (in other words, not medical, science, and education) feel that they should just study and get the best grades throughout college. let me say that one thing I've learned from the people I work with, is that its absolutely a fact that you must find something in college. Whether its a job, a club, etc., you must find your niche. Because it is so difficult out there. Its all about the people you know, your connections, and where you build your foundation from. The competition is so high these days that just having great grades will get you shit. Trust me, in the words of the dude from the mens wearhouse commercials, I guarantee it. okay sory that was lame.

anyways, im going to bounce out of this jizzoint, ill post up pics later.

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[13 Dec 2004|02:58am]

I'm back home after 2 weeks in Chicago. It kinda started off pretty bad cause noone was on campus, and I pretty much just worked everyday, but it really turned around and I kinda miss it now. But I'm glad to be home. It's just so quiet here in Fremont.

When I got into my room today, I realized that I'm constantly going back and forth and I have no permanent feel on anything. Half of my shit is in Chicago and half of it is here. But I love coming back to this room cause its all so clean and comfortable looking. This winterbreak is going to rock. Im going to mexico this saturday with my best friends, and then when I get back, my parents will be out in China. Home alone! Wahooo!!! It;s going to get lonely though. I'm going to be spending Christmas alone. But oh well, I'll bug some people.

So yeah, after a few days of work and boredom, Alfredo came back, and Keith was here to chill so things started to look up. Man I love Chicago. And it finally hit me that I have to stay in the city.

So what happened was that I began pondering on whether to transfer schools or not last year. Part of it was on a personal level, and the other part was on a level where I wanted to advance myself cause I felt that DePaul wasn't as challenging. But most of it, I think, was fear. But things changed, and I always change my mind. Like when I was at Harker, and I had a chance to transfer to Mission my senior year, but I ended up not doing it. So yeah, I really wanted to transfer to USC.

Imean, I love entertainment, watching Laguna Beach and the O.C makes me really want to be in socal, and USC is a freakin awesome school. But I kept constantly questioning it. Actually it was this whole issue where everytime I was back home in California, I'd be sure I wanted to transfer, and then as soon as I go back to Chicago, I'd change my mind, which was incredibly inconsistant. I got rejected from USC when I first applied and damn, it would be too much if I got rejected again, which I know I will because I kinda fucked up my grades this quarter.

But yeah, back to my point, I wanted to be in USC cause it reminded me of home, and it reminded me of a safe, comfortable place where I would most likely only be challenged academically instead of socially.

The thing is I dont really like school. I've never liked it actually, with the exception of a few classes. I still think college is a waste of time, and its just something we have to do. When it all comes down to it, the only good thing about college is the independent lifestyle, and the ability to think on your own and be more responsible with your life. But because I don't like school, why would I want to go to USC, knowing its going to be a lot harder? I found it so pointless. Its not like if I go to USC im going to be obsessed with studying and going to classes and working hard in subjects I dont give a rats ass about. But I still wanted to go.

I went out with a group of friends last night, and we went out to the city to eat and watch a movie. The night before I went to a friends birthday party at her apartment and had a blast. It just hit me that I don't want to be anywhere else. I love the city. I love the sounds, the hustle and bustle environment, the movement, the smell, the convenience, and the lifestyle. Imean I have a good job, im doing okay in school, and I have good friends, I just don't see a reason why I should leave. I got so far socially here, I dont want to go through the hardwork again.

So I got inspired randomly, like usual, and decided to write out a serious plan for my future, and what I hope to accomplish. Once again, i have a lot of time to really focus on myself right now. I really wanna move to New York City for grad school. I think it'd be an awesome transition cause my dream now is to fully experience the cities on the west, midwest, and east coast.

But yeah, anyways, last night was awesome. Alfredo and I decided to eat at this really cheap pasta restaurant on clark, called "Pasta Bowl." If you're in the Lincoln Park area, go there! So we're walking , and we passed adri, meghan , and julz apartment and we just happened to see adri walking up the stairs to her apartment. So we asked her to come along, and next thing you know, Jay came with us too. So we ate, and then after, decided to hit up Loews theatre downtown, which was my first time going to a movie theatre in the city. We watched Oceans 12, and shopped at marshall fields before watching it. Man it was beautiful. The decorations, ambiance, and lights were amazing. I was blown away. Overall, it was such a great time because for once, alcohol wasnt involved in the mix.

Imean, the momments I cherish the most is when I get to be with my friends and just hang out without all the bullshit college cliches. And the greatest thing wwas when Adri said after that she had more fun doing this then sitting next to her toilet after going to goodbar. I love hearing that because last year, that's all I tried to explain to people. Yet, some people still dont get it. Which makes me feel more lucky that I had a normal high school life.

I'm really going to miss the seniors this year. I've bonded with a lot of them and I trully look up to them. They have this maturity that I really respect cause it gets me away from all that freshmen and sophomore bullshit that I deal with. The phoniness and insecurities. Lisettes birthday was on friday and I had such a blast at her apartment. It was a wine and dine event and I met a lot of awesome people. I realized I get along better with older people cause they have this actual outlook in life. Im not saying younger people dont, but you know what I mean. Wine tastes nasty though, I think I have to get used to it. But I had such a great time talking with people and having real conversations. Which made me come to a conclusion that I really want to stop going to "Keggers" unless I know the people there, or unless i'm pretty fucked up already because I just can't stand those things anymore.

So yeah, work has been great, I finished designing most of their marketing materials and spent like 3 hours at Kinkos cutting a lot of the printed stuff. Many I love Kinkos now. I used to hate it with a passion but the ones here have people who know whta the fuck they're doing.

I hate how turning on the heater equals a big fattty gas bill. So we decided that unless we're freezing beyond belief, that we aren't going to turn it on. Its been fine, I've just been sleeping in like 3 layers of t shirts and hoodies.

I also picked up a habit of mine. Well Keith pointed it out to me that I constantly love to ask people over and over again if theyve seen a movie that I just happen to love. Last week was The Terminal, and now its The Last Samurai. Man I constantly ask people, but I love to get people to watch movies I like. Mostly the ones with suprise endings cause theres nothing better than watching it with a friend and anticipating the ending while waiting to see your friends reaction. I love it. I've always been a person that cares more about other's satisfaction than mine, so I love those kind of reactions. Which is also why I cant keep suprises from people.

This was a really scattered entry with a lot of common sense, but yeah, it's just whats been on my mind.

btw, I think I shuold write more entries where i'm talking out of my ass like the last one i wrote about lohan and duff. apparently, it brings in more comments.

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[06 Dec 2004|08:13pm]

I am a big fan of pop culture, but I must say, there has been some stuff thats been pissing me off lately.

First off, Lindsay Lohan.... I got two words for you, Come aannn! (Family Guy) So shes now a singer, and I'm thinking to myself, my god, talk about taking advantage of fame in the worst and most embarrassing way possible. Her new song sounds like Britney's old demo tapes that she threw away. I think Lohan's writers found it in the trash and decided to make something out of it. The song is an absolute wreck. Lohan can't sing. She can, however, act. Which is why I am pissed. She's a great actress. In my opinion, shes a lot more talented then the Lizze McGuire chick, who, by the way, also pisses me off. But i'll get back to that later. Lohan can act well, and she has the possibility to be a pre-Jodie Foster. However, she's fucked it up by this really bad and fake album.

I watched a bit of Hilary Duff's movie about where she sings and that shit, and it pissed me off. If there's one thing I can't stand, its movies that try to promote their real lives. For example, in 8 Mile, Eminem played, well, himself. Big deal. Sure he was a good actor, but how hard is it to play yourself. He played a rapper, and well, hes a rapper! So the movie was just shameless promotion. This movie was the same. I hate movies when singers try to act like they cant sing, or are "having" trouble doing it, but end up belting out beautiful chords. Its like, are you fucking with me? You got so many potential movies out there, and you give me this shit? I already see you singing on tv, you gotta make a movie about it? Oh man.. The only thing good out of hilary is that one song on that show Laguna Beach.

So people say they don't like Laguna Beach. Shuttup! You know you watch it man. I admit its so stupid, but its entertainment! People love watching good looking people on tv say stupid things and get into unecessary drama. It's great.

To get to my point, guys have to be less macho these days. I'm tired of all these guys trying to pull up this front like they're fucking hardcore or something. In the words of School of Rock, you ain't hardcore, till you lived hardcore. I say guys need to just be honest. It's okay if you like to watch the O.C. It's okay if you have Ryan Cabrera on your iPod. And its okay if can't wait to find out who's gonna win the Manhunt. OH wait, that's just me. Ha ha ha. But yeah, stop putting up a front. Just be yourself man. Stop using words like "fag", and put up posters of Beer Brands on your wall. It's okay to put up a poster of Harry Potter, your favorite book of the summer. It's okay to be real.

Overall, i'm pretty tired, and I'm going bowling tonight, then hang out with Julz, and crash, and work tomorrow, and yeah.

Man, I love Austin Powers, theres that one line in the movie where him and No. 2 are playing black jack, and he stays on 4, and says he likes to live life dangerously. I started cracking up for 5 minutes straight.

The Terminal is such a good movie. I watched it the second time. Catherine is soooo hot. Oh man, why does she have to be married to the 80 year old.

And the best part of the night was when I commented on how the Theme song to The Terminal hella reminded me of Home Alone, the movie, cause the theme song had that mischevous goofy style to it, and Alfredo said outloud "THEY JUST DONT MAKE MOVIES LIKE THAT ANYMORE"

hahahahahhahaha. That was great.

I love John Williams, what an amazing composer, I just dloaded all his movie themes, My god, how does he do it?

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[20 Nov 2004|03:57pm]

It's been a hard week for me, but I've been slowly feeling better.

It really sucks when you get used to something, and then that gets lost. It's almost like a part of your personal habit is lost. Right now, I feel like how I felt when I first came to DePaul. I wasn't used to it cause I lost a habit of mine. I lost the inability to be with the people I love and the people that I've grown to be accustomed to. I lost that habit. Now, I lost another habit, and I feel a bit back to square one.

The less phone time I have now, the more I think about my life, about myself, and where I'm heading. I realized I've built myself to such high standards in life that I can't settle for less. Which is really unhealthy, because this is reality, this is life, and you have to settle for shit before you can even settle for less. And when you settle for less, you gotta work your ass off to settle for just "fine."

I've been going to the bank like 2 times a week now because I am now completely in control of my financial life. It's pretty interesting, dealing with deposits, watching my money, credit checks, interest rates, etc. You never really pay attention to any of this shit until you realize you have to shape up and live on your own. I get 3 bills every month and my roommates and I consult each other with what we have to do to split it, etc. We all work so its a very mutual understanding.

I signed up for the Japan Business Seminar study abroad for this spring and I'm really excited about it. I now have nothing stopping me from exploring everything. I just want to be everywhere. I want to live in different environments, eat different foods, see different things. I feel like that's my purpose in life. I don't even know if I want to do business anymore. I don't know why, I feel like I'm not a good business man.

All my life I've been going toward that goal of being a successful business man, and now I realized that I'm not sure if that's what I want. I struggled in Business Law, and I'm most likely going to die in accounting and economics, so I wonder is this really what I want? Imean, I love the idea behind business, and I love the risks that one takes, but at the same time, I just don't think my mind is smart enough to handle all these courses of things that completely challenge my mind.

Out of all my class this quarter, the one class that has really got me into, was the world religions class where we focused on eastern religion. I love anything associated with multiculturalism, religion, and race and ethnicity. I'm taking a class next quarter about homosexuality. That should be really interesting.

I also realized that im not really good at anything. Sure, I have some talents and I can do things, but Im not that good at it. And it pisses me off, because I have no focus of where my talents are driven toward. For example, I can play instruments, and write music, but I'm not good enough for music school. I can draw, paint, and do graphic design, but Im not good enough for Art School. I can think of strategic business plans, marketing strategies, but im not good enough for business school. I have all of these scattered interests and hobbies that I am completely lost of where my main focus is.

THerefore, I just want to travel. I'm thinking about studying abroad next year in either England or Japan. I need to get out. I love Chicago, but I feel like its my time to move on. I would love to go to New York. Everything about being in the MIdwest have been great and I have gained so much knowledge of different cultures and environments, but I feel like I'm also leaning back, and not much forward.

I look at some people, and I just don't agree with what they do. And it actually effects me. One of my roommates feel the need that every "hang out" must involve drinking. He feels the need that every time his friends come here to visit, they must get trashed and find a party. I don't see how someone can live like that. I feel parties are the most superficial and materialistic forms of meeting anyone. How many times have you seen people exchange numbers and never call them back. Or remember names that they forget the next day. I've been to bars too, but I cant seem to function well unless im with a lot of friends. I feel like girls go there to tease, and guys go there to harass.

The best times I've had here were when I hung out with friends while shopping, walking around, eating dinner at different restaurants, hanging out at each others apartments, club events, road tripping, talking, and just going out to shows.

I think it just might be my lack of self esteem that is speaking. Maybe im just scared. I've always been scared of rejection. But I hate small talk. I've been alone and used to it now.

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[04 Oct 2004|12:45am]

For the first time in my xanga/livejournal career, I've had to really think about what to write. Man this sucks, I've literally writen two entries, and deleted both of them. I just dont know what to write about because I feel like im re-iterating the obvious. My life is pretty normal right now, with a few up and downs, such as living indepently and dealing with financial issues, and being in chicago and having fun. I really dont know what to say. Everything thats going on is similar to everyone else. School's a struggle, work occasionally sucks, and living alone has been sometimes challenging. Nothing is really new.

Im sitting here listening to Ashlee Simpson and Ryan Cabrera. Both their songs are really catchy. Why do people dislike catchy music? Or atleast pretend to dislike it. I've always been a fan of catchy music, but I guess i'm just another person in a enormous crowd of pop lovers. Speaking of music, I miss my piano. I used to sneak into the music school's practice rooms to play, but now I cant cause I dont have any classes near the area anymore. Living off campus this year is interesting cause I never really go to the student center, or eat at the caf anymore.

In my religion class, I had to go to a Buddhist temple on a field trip. What sucks about being in the city, is that when we do go on fieldtrips, you pretty much have to meet up there with the class, cause you can get anywhere on the el train. I found the directions and I got there but then I was lost. I got off at Wilson stop and it was really ghetto and kinda scary. I just kind of wandered around, and clenched my wallet in my pocket. I finally found an old monk and I assumed he was going to the temple so I followed him. It turned out he was chinese and I spoke to him in mandarin. Kinda weird how everything worked out.

The guy at the temple talked to us about the very basic form of Buddhism. It was interesting because my grandparents are buddhist and I never really cared about it. I'd go to the temples two times a year and just kinda accepted it like it was a chore. One thing this time really stood out about what the man said.

He said that in buddhism, they dont worship any gods. In fact, there are no gods, and they dont pray because their main focus is to release suffering. And to release suffering, there is no point in worshipping a higher power, when the main focus is yourself. I found that to be very interesting, and It made me want to learn more. I think a major reason why I always distanced myself from christianity was because I didnt feel like it allowed one to be natural and free of what their desires were. Instead, it was kind of a way to follow a set of rules and a new lifestyle that was considered moral to one being. Being an open-minded and liberal person, I feel the only morals I shuold trust are the ones I put forth on my own. I think it just makes a person even more narrowminded when they see or experience others living their own life sinfully, when really, its their personal moral and choice. And when it comes down to it, judgement comes into the picture, and I really dislike that.

I used to really look down upon people who I didnt feel was doing what I felt was right, and now I realize that's the worst way to think. Everyone's differnet in their own liking, and you have to respect that. The more you respect that, the more your mind becomes more universal in the understand of different human nature.

Being here in Chicago, I've chosen to really walk outside of the bubble that I lived for the past many years. I've gotten really used to it, but I still see myself distanced from the environment here at times. I should be lucky though. I have a lot of good friends here, I've joined a very intellectual business fraternity that really allowed me to be around people who have the same goal and interest as I do, and I have my own apartment, whom I share with 2 of my best friends here. However, at times, I am not satisfied with the way my life is. I can never stay with one thing. Ive started my job for only 3 weeks, and I'm already getting disinterested, which is horrible, because theres no consistancy. I've completely realized that the "party" scene is wayy out of my interest by now. Last year was fun, but now I'm just simply getting really bored of the festivities that involve. Seriously, theres always the usual: The guys are normally either dressed in a dress shirt from express, abercrombie/hollister wear, or one of those vintage t-shirts that have random giberish on them, 2 guys get into a fight about something stupid like stepping on the other foot on accident, and guys that get all macho when something happens to a girl, so they try to hype it up by swearing really loud.

However, I loved being at the bar. I headed over to Barcelona with my friends last thursday and had the time of my life. I dont know what it was but I had agreat time. I enjoyed the atmosphere. For once, it wasn't some shitty old college house with bad furniture and lame posters of cliche movies that all college students have DVD's of (Scarface, Pulp Fiction, Animal House). It wasnt crowded to the point where I couldn't breathe. And it was classy. THe people there were older, and well...just a bit more mature. They were well dressed, and you didnt have to wait in a line of a bunch of freshmen lustfully waiting for a drop of really bad, watered-down, and just plain old foamy beer.

Then again, I also realized that im a really boring person. I wouldnt be able to hit up the bars every thursday, or go to the hottest party on weekends. I found myself just enjoying some down time watching a movie at home, talking to a friend on the phone, going out to eat, or catching a movie. Whatever happened to that? Luckily, being a sophomore and being out of the dorms, I've been able to catch a lot of down time doing things that I like to do.

Here are some Barcelona and other random pics:

Here's a Lauren, Mike, Meghan, me and Lauren's friend Laura..i think

One of our deltasig brothers, George, is bartending.

Here;s a big group of people.

Me, Mario, and Lisa

Me and my Stacie. She's pretty much like a big sister to me.

Mike, Alfredo (roommate), me, mario, and kristian

These are the girls I work with at Meeting Tomorrow.

Stacie, anais, me, alfredo, and mike. Kristian gave me back my suit jacket so I decided to sport it.

Justin (alumni), laura, and me

Me and my fake ID.

THe dancing area.

I finally had a taste of white castle!

It's good to be doing marketing this year.

That's all folks. cya.

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[23 Sep 2004|01:14am]

Man I am so stressed out and im pretty buzzed right now cause its cesars bday tonight. anyways, chicago has been awesome. I;ve spent all last week with recruitment for delta sigma pi, and its been wild. me and kristian have been working our asses off. i got a new job on tuesdays and thursdays, and its hard as hell, but it pays well. my roommates are awesome. alfredo cesar and i chill everday and we just have a great time watching movies and hanging out. alfredo and i have been eating out everynight cause our 4th freeloader roommate has been cooking all the time and it is nasty. i cant wait until he leaves at the end of this month, its gonna be great. anyways cesars bday was today so me and chris threw a huge ass bash at our apt. it was great, everyone showed up and we all had a gerat time. we hit up gracies during the night cause thats the best dfamn restaurant out there.

god i love living here in lincoln park. its like greenwich village of new york. btw, af has a new brand called greenwich. but yeah, its so nice here. even though there are a bunch of yuppies here, its been great. its good seeing all my friends here. we went to julia, adrie, and megans apt a few days ago and its soo nice. i dont know what im talking about, but yeah, chicago is cool, and i havent even shopped yet. what the hell. im so broke. i do my laundry at work cause its free. hahaha. i love getting haircuts downstairs.

okay, im babbling, cya everyone. i love you

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[03 Sep 2004|09:37pm]

shit,im going to chicago in 2 days. damn this apartment thing is harder than i thought, but its good experience i guess.

im going to have to really deal with my patience cause i love my apartment as much as i love 650 dollars. dammit, paying that every month will be a bitch but i think i have 2 jobs down for now. i hope i dont get too anal with cleaning and stuff, but i really wont be able to stand it if my roommate smokes weed with his friends in the living room. i would love to follow the "you have to clean up after yourself" thing, but im afraid if we do that, nothing will ever be clean. what do you then?

living with people is hard, cause each person is raised differently. son of a bitch. and even worst, the freeloader that was staying during the summer, is staying again for a month because his lease wont start yet. i got so pissed, but oh well, hes going to have to pay rent just like us.

anyways, im not as sad that im leaving cause fremont has gotten so boring. But I will miss california cause of sf, the beaches, the nice air and weather, the mountains, so cal's trendy and sunny environment, in n out, and open minded people.

i will finally put up a picture post soon ....

damn this entry sucked.

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[28 Jul 2004|11:36pm]

im going to chicago tomorrow to start planning and taking care of some apartment details. im excited! ill be back on the 5th.

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[26 Jul 2004|02:02am]

Since summer started, I've been addicted to TV. I don't know why, but I love television. I love entertainment in general. I am obsessed with fame and nothing tickles my bones better than a great reality show. I am embevelled into popculture, and I love whats hot and new. I am the farthest to a non-conformist, and I envy and love everything I see on the big screen. I am a media nut. US magazine is my bible.

Anyways, to get to my point. I love tv and watch a whole shit load of it. Recently I have been favoring a few shows. During the school year, I was obsessed with Family Guy, Simpsons, The Apprentice, Real World, and several MTV shortcomings.

I love MTV. It's like what I say about the RedEye newspaper in Chicago that I read every morning. It's news that matters. MTV is entertainment that matters. They've got the true life which allows everyone to view the people in our nation. They've got Real World and Road Rules, which allows everyone to laugh and enjoy provoked drama, and they have great documentaries and news briefs on issues and events that matter in our nation. Sure, people can call it "garbage," but they know they watch it.

Here are a few shows i've been enjoying lately.

The Assistant - This show is just absolutely hilarious. Andy Dick has never been funnier. He tries to be serious, and plays it off in the most exaggerated, and goofy way possible. I loved the first episode, and now I watch it every monday night. It's a spoof off of every other reality show that has been famous. When Andy needs to cut somebody, he utilized the theme and set of each reality show that has ever hit the big time on television. He treats the contenstants like shit, and throws random temper tantrums. Overall, he is so funny, and very unpredictable.

Wild Boyz - Many would think I am really whacked out to enjoy this show, but I'll tell you why I love it. Steve-O and Chris Pontius are absolutely hilarious too. The reason why I love this show is because they are generaly having a great time. And what makes it better, is that they are doing so by traveling around the world and treating every culture with honest curiosity and respect. True, they do do stupid things, but they never make fun of the cultures, or the people of it. They experience each tradition that is involved, and acknowledge it's roots. Also, I love slapstick humor, and nothing cracks me up more than people getting hurt. Overall, it has heart to it. It really does.

Ashlee Simpson Show - Whoever made this show was a genius. It was probably Geffen Records Marketing director because I can tell you one thing. I am sure as hell positive that her record sales have skyrocketed because of this show. Upon this show, Ashlee Simpson was nothing. However now, she is potentially quite popular. I am not bagging this show because I enjoy watching it. It shows the struggle of a girl trying to find out what her music is, and how hard it is to get a record contract. I think she has talent. She might not have the best voice, but she's passionate. The show is quite honest at times, and I guess thats great propoganda for cd sales simply because it shows the hardwork artists put into making a cd. It kinda made me wanna buy her cd. I bought one for Diana, and I was about to get one. But then I downloaded it instead.

I'm going to Chicago on thursday now instead of yesterday. Complications came up. I cant wait to get my room done and move in to my damn apartment. It's also about time I get my act together and start planning shit for DSP.

I promised pictures and I did not deliver. I will though. Soon.

Also, the party at stevens was a great time. Met a lot of old weibel friends, and generally had a good time socializing. Overall, friendship and loyalty was tested near the end, and we passed with flying colors. I feel like that will be the last party this summer. Oh well. Thanks steven for keeping it organized.

And in other news, I guess its time that I dont care what other people think of me anymore. I have more important things to deal with. So if anyone thinks im a jerk, or an asshole, thats cool. I'm tired of pleasing everyone. I'm too old for that. Too tired to do it.

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[20 Jul 2004|12:42am]

Holy mother of pearl, I haven't updated in awhile. I have been super busy lately. I'll spare the long entry and just get to the point.

Contest - thanks to everyone who entered the contest. All of your ideas were great, except for a few like, eso- haha jk terry, i love you. Of course there has to be a winner, and i'll tell that person personally. I wont say who, and theres a possibility that I wont use the name.

Birthday- My birthday was great. I had a superb time. All the people I loved showed up and we went to Blowfish for dinner. It was horrible service, but hey, what do you expect at a place that sells overpriced sushi. It was a good time though, Steven made it worth it with his comments, and I enjoyed the atmosphere and just being with my friends. We chilled at Dan's place after and joked around, talked, etc. I walked into dans room with my shirt off and saw his sister sitting there. That was pretty funny and awkward. Heh Heh. Im sure alex was jealous. I stole a flower pen after cause they were being dicks.

Getting Fat - I've been getting fat since summer started. OH well, I don't care. I love food, and the culture of the culinary arts. Haha that sounded so lame. Anyways, I've lost weight recently, and have been playing basketball in order to keep in shape. One day, I will beat Jeffrey Tan one on one, and Andy and I will beat Dan and Jeff 3 times in a row. It WILL happen. We're getting closer.

Spontaneous Trip to visit Di - So after that, we went on a spontaneous trip with dan andy and i to LA. I had to visit Di after a long hiatus. It was fuuunnn. At first, Dan and Andy kept saying "Ghey! Why are we in LA?" but sooner or later, after 2 days, we were coming home and they started saying "Ghey! Why are we in Fremont?" It was good times. Hella chill, and everyone was just really laid back. Mostly Di. I absolutely loved her chillness and that really made going down there worth it. We all had a great time. Thanks Terry, Vickie, Tracy, the rest of the gang for giving us a good time.

Sleepover - The sleepover kicked ass like always. Andy's house is the best place to sleep over because his dad cleans the damn place everyday, and his entertainment room is so cozy. We hit up a party in San Mateo that night and we all had a fucking great time. I got wasted for the 2nd time, actually, not wasted, but really buzzed. It was so funny. Dan kept laughing at me, and Steven and I had a blast making fun of people and trying to talk to them. Interesting things happened that night but I won't get into it . We all woke up to Dan Cha's now famous comment "Thank you, Mr. Something" cause he forgot andys last name. (his dad brought donuts) It was hilarious. What made it funnier was that we were all kinda awake so we heard it, and everyone started laughing.That was priceless.

Camping - Camping was fucking great. Like it was unbelievable. All that hard work paid off. Whoever didn't/couldn't go truly missed out on a great time. I came out of this trip really learning a lot. I'll be honest, there were a few people that I haven't talked to in awhile and felt that I had to satisfy them. That got me really nervous, but it ended up that they had a great time, and it made it all worth it. I felt that I got closer to everyone who went. There's no doubt that it was something that I will always remember. This was an experience that couldn't be erased, which is something I take to heart. I just strongly believe that everyone should experience as much as they can in their youth because it will all be lost when they get older and have to deal with new priorities in life. We conquered camping.

Work - The Townsend Group has been an interesting experience. I have seen both the lighter and dark side in the world of advertising. I guess I realized that I wanna be an entrepenuer. I can work, but I have a pet peeve when people tell me what to do. It's a bad thing, but I deal with it. I've been having fun, and the projects have been challenging but very resourceful. I've learned a lot and I hope to gain more experience from it for my future ventures.

Project - I've been working on a fully extensive internet project that I will not reveal yet. It's been incredibly fun and rewarding, and I am hoping it will catch on with the wave. It's so fun, and it reminds me of how much I love taking crazy risks. I've started my own business again, and I hope this time, the rewards will be superb. It just sucks working alone sometimes. When it comes down to it, I wish I could find another student, just as crazy and ambitious as I am. But sadly, its so hard to find those kind of people because everyone is so focused in school, and studying. Oh well.

Cousin - My cousin is coming down this week. It's going to be weird because I have not seen him for possibly over 10 years. He's from North Carolina, or South, I'm not sure, and is gonna sleep over at my house tomorrow. He lives in the countryside on a farm. How interesting is that. And he's half white, half chinese. It's going to be interesting talking to him and showing him around the bay area. Hopefully he'll have fun.

Okay, that's it for now. I'm too tired to do anything, I'll post up pictures soon.

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[28 Jun 2004|10:42am]

Hey everyone

I'm going to have a small contest. This contest is simple. Think like you're going to start your own website. However, the website name has to be different, funky, silly, creative, and in a matter of one word, or 2 syllables. You have two choices.

Think of a random word (it doesnt have to make sense, just has to be catchy)

or even better

Think of a word that has some sort of connection to "group," "togetherness" "clique", etc.

That's all.

The winner gets a $20 jamba juice, or starbucks gift certificate, and I will even mail it to you if you're not from around northern california.

Thanks a lot. Your help is deeply appreciated. I am close to desperation.

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[23 Jun 2004|02:06am]

I just got back from one of the greatest and most memorable day of my life.

Today was birthday and I really thought nothing of it. For the past 3 years, I've always had to plan it, and it was always really last minute and lame. We would eat dinner as usual, and watch a movie. It was really typical and there was nothing really special about it.

I always enjoyed planning suprise parties and planning other peoples birthdays, but I never recieved one myself.
I tried to call everyone and get together but a lot of them couldnt make it. I got pretty sad about it cause Andy called me and told me he couldnt go, which was understandable cause he was gonna be with Sue, and Alex and Chris said they couldnt go, which I was also able to understand cause they normally eat dinner at home. Noone was able to make it, and I couldnt reach Blincoe and Steven, or Josephine, Chow, and Sandy.

So I drove to Dans house cause he was the only one that was free, and I called up Di cause I was pretty bummed out. For once, I was actually a tad bit dissapointed in my friends. But then when I opened his door, I suddenly saw like all these shoes, and immediately saw everyone come out of nowhere and suprise me. It was so freakin awesome. I've never been suprised in my life cept when Diana came up. Both suprises were equally amazing.

Thanks to Dan Yeh for putting it together cause honestly, he always ceases to cover up shit so well. Thanks to my Diana, seriously, for telling Dan that I've always wanted a suprise party, hahahah. Thanks to Alex, Andy, Jeff, Chris, Blincoe, Steven for coming, and most importantly the girls, Chow, Sandy, Steph, Iru, and Josephine for really making this getogether memorable.

It was a great time. Thanks to everyone. I'll post up pictures soon.

Also, thanks to all the people that commented in my journal to say Happy Birthday. Not many people ever remembered my birthday, so thanks to all of you. I truly love you guys. Honestly.

This is going to be a crazy and fun week.

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[22 Jun 2004|12:01am]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CALVIN YU!

-diana

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[21 Jun 2004|12:10pm]

Summers been really chill. I've been having a lot of fun doing nothing. I've been really busy though. It sucks when you have so much to do, and then all of a sudden, you lose your trusty organizer that youve had since this year. Dammit, my red little assistant is gone. I am lost.

Anyways, stupid sexy dan updated my last entry for me. good ole dan. We had a really fun filled day last week, hahahaha. On friday, dan, andy, and I woke up at 5:45 am to eat breakfast and say bye to jayne. It was hella funny cause we've never woke up that early since high school. It wasn't that bad though. We got lumberjack slams which were pretty good, but I started feeling the 3 stages later cause I guess my stomach isn't ready for food that early. After, I had to go to an interview, and then we went to Gilroy to shop. It was funny. Just Dan and I walking around together. We looked like a ghey couple. Dan liked that.

After we had dinner at Pasta Pomodoro. Food was pretty good, just talked and chilled. It was quite a nice date. Just the way I like it. hahaha.

But yeah, this past week, I've been at someones house everynight just hanging out, watching movies, etc. It's been really chill. California's weather has been more than kind to me. I havent had to check weather.com for updates at all. I snagged the internship at Townsend Group, so I was really happy. My summer's gonna be packed. Hopefully we can go camping still. And I keep forgetting my bday is tomorrow. Ghey! I think the guys and I are gonna hit up a strip club or something.

Nothing else is really new. Life here in the mont is quite slow and empty, but its fun nonetheless because of the people. The mission graduation was cool, seeing everyone, etc.

BTW, I have to work out now because everyone is saying how fat I got. I get the point guys! Its funny cause I've never been able to get fat. I guess a whole year of pasta, burgers, fried stuff, steaks, really doesnt pay off. Oh well. Hopefully I can get some intense training done so I can lose some weight and lose my fatty cheeks so Diana won't dump me.

Man I really dont have much to say right now. No stupid insights or anything, so here are some pictures.

andy and I at denny's at the crack of dawn

steven, me, and andy at msjhs grad

jayne and I at dennys

dan and i

random picture of me and japanese friend in jap class

that

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